I walk into a horizon that fills with dark clouds.

[charlie2]

Here is the message I wrote to Oprah AND Dr. Phil...

I am writing on behalf of my aunt and uncle, Diana and Roger Whitfield.
Roger recently came down with sickness that made him to miss a week of work. When he recovered they could not give him his job back.
For 14 years they have lived in their "dream house"--the same house where I spent my first 22 years of living.
It is a terrible tragedy they have to put their house up for sale and move into a communal living situation. They did so much to make that yard beautiful with al the wonderful trees they planted. In the back yard s the now majestic and umbrella-like purple plum tree I planted when I was 9. I am so afraid the new residents might cut down the trees or not take care of the house. I offered to move in and pay over half of my monthly check to help them out but...
I see my wonderful childhood moving away, and I am moving towards a horizon filling with dark clouds. So tired of all the pain my life is throwing at me, all the unfulfilled dreams. It is getting late and too soon it will not matter if my dreams happen because there will be nothing left recognizable of what my life use to be.
I am so in pain it is making me angry. I am thinking about going out tonight and busting the windows of some buildings in the downtown area, God, this city is such as eyesore!!! My aunt and uncle will be leaving their BEAUTIFUL-to-behold neighborhood to live in this dump part of the city! I can cheer myself up by shattering some windows to match the pain of my shattered dreams...
I prayed to God, got my pastor to pray, and if you at Harpo can only pray from the heart for me that is what I am asking for... Seems that is all anyone can do in these unhappy times. How I miss the past!!! I'm told in Near-death-experiences the Light allows you to relive your entire past. I wonder... Would I be able to relive my past up close and personal... Nah, knowing my life all I'd see is fire and more demons...

Betcha neither fricking one of them will even give a fricking shit!!! I've been trying since 1999 to get Oprah Winfrey to let me talk to her about my dreams... I've even tried to meet Billy Graham but even THEY don't care if you're not a public figure you know, it's all about perpetuating a product, religion, even if it IS faith in Christ. Oh, you all are gonna hear ALL about this shit in my song if I can ever get the goddamn thing off the goddamn ground...


Christoper:

My prayers are with you. Remember to think right, eat right, exercise and to get enough rest and you'll be composing

at your best when you come out of this pain.

Also, remember....you have a lot of friends thinking about ya